Lots have happened I suppose.

Accidentally move to LA for 8 months. Pack up my stuff to go on a national tour and get let go after 3 days when I'm not what they want. They try to send me back to LA but instead I see my family in Missouri

My grandmother called concerned I would get rusty in my time off. It's not enjoyable time off really though I like being able to see friends.

My family is too busy with church and PTA to hang out with me and when they are home everyone goes to their room.

I keep losing the feeling in my fingers.

I just feel very overwhelmed. I want a lot of things and everything just seems to crumble. My panic with Vegasboy has now moved into panic over an old job. I told them when they cut half my salary that I couldn't work for them anymore. They said I should have negotiated. I thought I had given too much of myself to them and it felt like they were taking advantage. I feel like I've left a cult. There's this huge thing I can no longer talk to people about.

My first date in LA just got engaged. I think he met her a week after we went out. She's pretty.

Everyone thinks my love life is pretty amusing. I think it's the way I tell it because if I don't say it in just the right way it's just kind of sad.

An ex coworker invited me to Paris and wants to knock me up.

The guy I took the most care to get to know after the whole Vegas thing fell off the face of the planet now that hes not in Africa or hiking. How weird is that.

It's just tiring. I've always been successful in my career. I had a really important interview cancelled 15 minutes before I was suppose to have it for a company I am very eager to work with. I feel like I'm attracting all this negative energy that's messing with things as hippy as that sounds.

Im not entirely sure I cant just go live in my car by the beach