Back in NYC, the last place there was

It's correct in everything.

I once sent a picture to a boy of a building and his response was "I can't wait to see you"

 April 15, 2013
Enlightenment in Intentions
Aries Daily Horoscope
Today you may surprise yourself by becoming overly critical when faced with confusing behavior from the people with whom you share your environment. Your first response may be one of anger or disillusionment, as you will likely unwittingly assume that oddities in others are being purposefully directed against you. However, you may in fact be overanalyzing what you see and hear today. If you choose not to make assumptions and to have faith in the good intentions of your peers, your mood will likely begin to fall back into balance. Your loved ones and colleagues may even extend you the same courtesy, giving you the benefit of the doubt as a matter of course.

Since we can never be wholly sure what thoughts drive others to speak and behave as they do, we make our own lives easier by giving these individuals the benefit of the doubt in our day-to-day interactions. There is an element of trust involved in everything we do with others, whether we are working together or simply spending time in one another's company. When we choose to have faith in the goodness of humanity even when we feel offended or judgmental, we discover that people will quite often live up to our optimistic expectations. This is not to say that we should overlook overt gestures of unkindness, but we should never assume that crass words or thoughtless actions were meant hurtfully. You will be less apt to criticize others today when you make an effort to trust in the innate goodness that lies in wait in all human beings.


But mostly things are going super. 

Simple

Tomorrow I start stage managing at the theater that made me fall in love with theater in the first place. 5,000+ seats. I haven't done theater in about two years. I hear a lot of criticism in my head from college. I never felt like I quite fit in and it's the reason I found film festivals actually.

One of my coworkers from the last theater I worked out pointed out that this is my time to inspire the next generation. I thought that was really beautiful.


I am actually quite capable of a lot of things.

STLNYC

I need to eat better. It really is where it all starts. And homemade meals taste like love. So far I haven't really had time for that. I like watching my roommates cook and learn with each other.

Traveling is making me more anxious than normal. I love that I have so many people who offer their couches, futons, spare rooms to me but I'm at the point I think I am worth more. Job wise. Just can't decide what that means.

I realized how absurd things had gotten. I was flirting with an actor who I had forgotten played a character named after this guy I was trying to forget this summer. In the script the character was chosen to create life after earth melts down and he runs into this Mormon girl. And there are sexbots. I mean, if ever there were a sci fi movie that reflected the part of time I was going through, this movie would be it. Apparently, it won't be made. Which is unfortunate.

However, I now know that ghosthunters are amazing in bed. I was told. I don't know. My whole interaction with guy things is just not working out.

I worked at the State Pen last week on Ghost Adventures. It was fun. I got a t shirt, bottle of whiskey and a whole lot of Uncrustables besides my pay.

Last night I found out the person who put me up for the job at the Fox dropped out. So here I am, stage managing for everyone who is anyone in STL. Haven't stage managed in forever and won't know what I'm getting into until I arrive the day of. I tend to find myself in positions like this more times than not.

I just need a hug.

And to pack. Because I didn't realize until 2 hours ago that leaving for STL and NYC means I have to bring stuff with me...