Ugh. Ha. We meet again.
I deserve better than what I'm allowing myself to receive.
Though- I have gotten better. I've turned down all the jobs that I felt were taking advantage of me. I feel like a victim saying that but I don't mean it that way. It's time to move on and raise the standards of my interactions with people.
I deserve better than the junk food I eat or the inappropriate texts I get.
There has to be something better than what's going on right now.
Today I helped my grandmother cut dead limbs off trees in her yard. It was a great metaphor. We have to cut off the things that aren't contributing the the greater whole so that we can put the energy into what's working.
I went through old journals from college today. So much that I wrote off handedly means so much now. And how did I know, then forget all the quirky things that would happen to me the past few years? I truly believe what happens to me was ingrained in me far before I was conscious of it.
I'm 29. I can tell I'm almost there. I really think so
